So Blessed

This morning had been a total rush, we sped to uni to make it just in time for our PBL and also for a test that everyone has been taking so seriously for the past couple of weeks. I have been so caught up in my own bubble and been so stressed out the past week and realized that I had somewhat taken my dear boyfriend for granted these few days. You know it's not right when you get so snappy and disgruntled when the smallest of things irritates you and you take it out on the people closest to you who you love most. I always live knowing so confidently that he loves me so much never to leave me, but it's wrong to take love for granted and it's wrong to put family second priority.

As I was walking down Grattan Street to collect something from the car which I had forgotten earlier on, I felt so incredibly energized and refreshed that all the stress is over for the time being. The weather today was incredible, the sun was warm and there was this perpetual breeze that was inviting and gentle on my face and it just brought so much life back to me. The wind on my face and the smell of moisture in the air made me recall my first time in Melbourne 2 years ago, as I walking down the same street and experiencing the same joy. The joy of discovering new places, the joy of hoping to get a place to do Medicine together with my sister in this university, the joy of knowing that it would make my parents so, so proud, and the joy knowing that I just might have the opportunity of meeting that special someone right here in Melbourne. And all those have come true.

I vowed never to ask for anything more, to be so contended and live doing the one thing I love most, and to be happy with anyone that fate brings me. But somewhere along the way, I began to lose gratitude, I craved for more but i did'nt know what I was searching for, I lost faith and goodwill, and most of all, I lost precious, precious family ties. And it all came crumbling down as I sat down and deciphered each and every issue and realized that amidst all my blessings, I grew arrogant.

The breeze today brought back new mening to my life, it was in that miraculous 3 minutes that I ganied a sudden awakening, and from here, I will learn to piece back every bit that I lost, to be the Gwen that I once was, to mend the garment of tears I have created, and to be happy.

I am blessed, and if I spent a little bit more time acknowledging that, I would'nt have sank into my whirlpool of confusion and self-doubt. I know that life has always been and will always be fair, and it just takes a little bit of wisdom, a nudge in the right direction, and a good strong heart to realize that blessings may come in the form of gifts, but the true blessing is to know how to preserve them, and hence channel that blessings into positive births from within.