My Birthday

I wish that my family will be happy and contented. I wish that all the fights and complications and anger will fade with time, and lessons will be learnt and joy will come hither. I wish that everyone I care for gets eternal happiness, and good things come in abundance to those that love. I wish that the disgusting words and shame and games of blame will stop, and a new beginning will come.

xoxo

Gwen

Random Acts of Kindness

How much time do we actually have here? What does it take to prove a point? Practice random acts of kindness, be it thought, words, or actions; anytime, anywhere! :)

Gem in the Dark

My dear baby,

Even when you are not physically next to me, the memory of you puts my heart at ease. Counting down the minutes to see you tomorrow!

IP IP IP!!

Shooting Stars

If  you wish, you will dream
If you dream, you will pray
If you pray, you will get
If you get, you will laugh
If you laugh, you will cry
If you cry, the tears will dry
When the tears dry, you will learn
If you learn, you will know
If you know, you will teach
If you teach, you will ask
If you ask, you will search
If you search, you will find
When you find, you will know
That everything lies in your heart.

Going gaga for GaGa, and a weekend away

After clinical placements on Wednesday we went for GaGa at Rod Laver Arena. What happens when you're not a big enough fan is that you won't enjoy the concert as much as you would like to. Personally I would like to spend the 200 bucks on something else if I knew the night was going to be mediocre. But spending time with your most loved one is the best therapy, so overall I had a lovely time with Jon.

                                                   

Then we had a weekend away at Wonthaggi, which is about 200km away from metro Melbourne, somewhere not far away from Philip Island.

                                     

                                                                       Pelican feeding

Took lots of random shots to kill time. There isn't much to do in a small suburb, but the change in scenery is a breath of fresh air. The 4 of us stopped where we felt like stopping and we chanced upon a beautiful creek and climbed over a sand dune which concealed the amazing ocean. Best part being the fact that there was nobody in sight and we felt like the only people in the universe. Very calming, but frightening to think that we are cut off from all ties of civilisation :P

My First GP Placement

I was seriously considering doing GP for good, I mean, what beats sitting on your bum all day doing prescriptions and small itsy procedures and getting a couple grand a month watching your bank account roll?! Ok I was serious except for the bank account part. Really! Nah just kidding. For real! HAHA kill me now...Yeah I was saying, I wanted to do GP for real,( that or ophthalmology. or dermatology.) until I met Bruce Ingram.

Which was, and will be the doctor supervising me for my GP placements.

Wow.
He brings sarcasm to a bloody level.

So there I was observing a patient, and I ASSURE you I was not zoning out, and he asks :' What joint is this?' Pointing to his 1st metacarpophalngeal joint. Which was what I said.

*Doctor rolls eyes* And when the patient left, he said, " It's the LEFT, FIRST metacarpophalyngeal joint" FML

Ok that was Mean Statement 1. I may sound overly-sensitive but trust me it gets worse. Along the other mean statments was " I don't mean to be critical of you, but your course really needs to up the anatomy"..Gee that didn't hurt. NOT!

Mean Statement 2: What murmur is this? I answer: Diastole? Doctor: You had 2 shots to get it right. And you didn't.

Mean Statement 3: Is it due to valve stenosis or incompetence? I answer: Incompetence? Doctor: Again, no prize for that answer.

What is this? Shoot Gwen Day? I felt ridiculously stupid at this point. nd I forgot the name of the Dorsalis Pedis Pulse, dammit what was it, 2 years ago? How am I supposed to know how to diagnose a woman with high Calcium levels, lethargy and constipation? Do I look like a DOCTOR to you? Hellooo I am in 3rd year. Which means I have ZERO medical knowledge, in other words. Ok that, or I really am stupid :(

I could go on forever about the nasty remarks he gave me, but it would take up 3 pages. Oh well. Like what hubby and Lizzie says, it's all in a day's work, and I can't bring work stress home..I am stressed ok, and I have the icky cold sores to prove it :( But that scores me free massages from hubby so I'm not complaining! Yay! :)

Oh well. I could say he made me miserable but why let a grouchy ol poohead ruin my day. After all I only have what, another 8AGONIZING HOURS with him, I can live with that :)

Lady Gaga post coming up!

xoxo
Princess
hahaha

Marriage- As I Know It

So the story goes that every girl finds her prince and settles down happily ever after. I never knew much about romance, not more than Snow White herself, but in the past two years, I learnt more than I ever thought I would when I flew over to Melbourne. So I'm married, does that change anything?

Everyone thinks that a perfect soulmate brings out the best in you, but no-one ever stops to think of how that happens. People think that the right one will eventually come along and your world will start shining brighter, and all your flaws will miraculously correct itself because love is in the air? I have a few words to say about that. Love does change a person, and it sometimes do so in the most cruel way- but the beauty of it is, you will always emerge cleansed and purified, maybe not like how you intended it to be, but the lessons that life teaches you is always worth learning. I am amazed at how much I have learnt in the past couple of years, it's who I am today that I am proud of, and I'm glad I made this choice, regardless of how controversial it may seem.

Why did I get married at 21? My reasons are simple, crystal clear. And my reasons are just the same as anyone else- I married out of love. Is that too hard to believe? Or do people think that just because we are young, we are undeserving of love? It's not easy being in this field, where finding a true undeceiving soul is equivalent of finding a needle in a haystack. I am weary of putting a false front all the time, and I feel it's time to just be who I am and stop being someone everyone wants me to be. And by being my true self, I am blessed to find someone who is just like me, someone who appreciates the simplicity of life, a heart that is golden and pure. I found someone who is capable if having a decent unadulteraed conversation with, and one who understands and has the same missions in life as I do. So why hesistate when the best is put in front of you?

So when someone asks me now, 'How does it feel like to be married?' I have only one answer.

"Marriage feels perfect. It feels like your life is put on hold indefinately, so you can stop and admire the colours of the world. It also feels like the world is spinning at top speed and you can't get off, but someone is always gripping your hand tight. Each day takes your breath away, but also fills your every cell with exploding gushes of air, it's undescribable, and you only need to experience true love to know it."

I love my life, and everything that has been and will be.