So the story goes that every girl finds her prince and settles down happily ever after. I never knew much about romance, not more than Snow White herself, but in the past two years, I learnt more than I ever thought I would when I flew over to Melbourne. So I'm married, does that change anything?
Everyone thinks that a perfect soulmate brings out the best in you, but no-one ever stops to think of how that happens. People think that the right one will eventually come along and your world will start shining brighter, and all your flaws will miraculously correct itself because love is in the air? I have a few words to say about that. Love does change a person, and it sometimes do so in the most cruel way- but the beauty of it is, you will always emerge cleansed and purified, maybe not like how you intended it to be, but the lessons that life teaches you is always worth learning. I am amazed at how much I have learnt in the past couple of years, it's who I am today that I am proud of, and I'm glad I made this choice, regardless of how controversial it may seem.
Why did I get married at 21? My reasons are simple, crystal clear. And my reasons are just the same as anyone else- I married out of love. Is that too hard to believe? Or do people think that just because we are young, we are undeserving of love? It's not easy being in this field, where finding a true undeceiving soul is equivalent of finding a needle in a haystack. I am weary of putting a false front all the time, and I feel it's time to just be who I am and stop being someone everyone wants me to be. And by being my true self, I am blessed to find someone who is just like me, someone who appreciates the simplicity of life, a heart that is golden and pure. I found someone who is capable if having a decent unadulteraed conversation with, and one who understands and has the same missions in life as I do. So why hesistate when the best is put in front of you?
So when someone asks me now, 'How does it feel like to be married?' I have only one answer.
"Marriage feels perfect. It feels like your life is put on hold indefinately, so you can stop and admire the colours of the world. It also feels like the world is spinning at top speed and you can't get off, but someone is always gripping your hand tight. Each day takes your breath away, but also fills your every cell with exploding gushes of air, it's undescribable, and you only need to experience true love to know it."
I love my life, and everything that has been and will be.
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